You're Holding Yourself Back

Well, here it is my first official blog post (cue confetti canons).

I've read a few things about blogs here and there so... I think I'm ready to begin! Something you won't notice are the 20 minutes it took me to write this third sentence. I'm so fearful. I'm kind of petrified in this worried state about how I'll sound as I type these very words. Will you hear my voice? Will you see all the backspaces and pauses I take between each word? WILL YOU EVEN CONTINUE READING? ​But, I guess I'll never know and hopefully we (or maybe just I) can bear through this exhilarating journey of blogging that I'm about to venture on.

I've realized something earlier today (you can probably guess from the title)- I'm holding myself back. Back from what you may ask? Back from doing what I truly want to do (or just doing things I want to do). 

It's funny, because I always thought I had a firm grip on who I was going to be and what I was going to do, until I noticed It's all been crumbling into a conglomeration of mush. Despite this pile of mush going nowhere, I keep trying to maintain this mushy pile! It's like when you try to build a sand castle without enough water mixed in, that baby is going to come crumbling down at some point.

To put things in a less metaphorical sense what I mean is, I don't know exactly what I want to pursue.  I thought I did, but I'm not so sure, and I think that's okay for now. Sometimes I feel that I don't allow myself to do what I am truly interested in. With this, I felt the insatiable urge to finally do something, no fear anymore! Which is where this blog comes into play.

So for now, I want to write down my adventures here in this blog (tbh, if you consider eating ice cream and watching Netflix at 1 am an adventure then you've come to the right place). I want to share my interests, hobbies, love of fandoms, and crazy night ramblings. Hopefully, you can join me in this journey and share in my interests and ramble with me too. Like everyone else, I'm just your average Joe, wait- Po. Hopefully, I am able to post more on a weekly basis. Now, where was I? Oh, that's right, the beginning of a new adventure.

It's time to (figuratively speaking) pack my bags.